I have been having a fair amount of insomnia. I thought maybe it was because some of the issues I have been dealing with were improving, sending back to the awful insomnia I experienced for many years through my pre-teens, into my twenties.
What do you do when you cannot sleep? You watch tv or movies, you pray, you cry, you go on facebook, hoping someone is there... you toss, you turn, you cry again, you take a bath, you pray some more... you go outside to get some fresh air, hoping that will help, and then it hits you... you should WRITE. Yeah, that is it! I will write. What will I write about? Random musings, my kids, my awesome hubby, hot tubs, raw food eating, essential oils, makeup and makeovers, vacations, whatever and wherever the whim takes you.
I don't know where I will begin. I don't know where I will end. It doesn't matter. Perhaps there is too much jumbled together in my head, or maybe I am feeling sad, for no apparent reason. It could be the forecasted rain is causing the increased pain I keep ignoring, and maybe I should just take something for it already... but I would rather not. Still maybe I should.
I hear the noise echoing from across the street at Food Maxx. It would be nice if people could just be more quiet and thoughtful. It would also be nice if I felt great, and even though tired, could just clean and get my home in order when I have insomnia. But, it would disturb my happily resting family.
When I went out onto the balcony, I had a feeling my quiet departure had interrupted Jim's sleep. Sure enough, after several minutes of breathing the fresh, cool air, the balcony door opened and he asked if I was okay. "No, not really." Sniff-sniff, cry... as aggravating as it can be to be unable to sleep, that cannot be my focus. Which is difficult when you so badly want to sleep. It is hard to think of anything else. But I need to. So I am going to google ideas to write about. Then I will come back here, and write away. Unless I get lucky and fall out... crash, snooze, zzzzz.....
