Friday, January 23, 2015

Sometimes it is good to just talk... or when the world is sleeping, to write.

Well, it has been about 16 months since I last posted here, and that was a deliberate move.  I needed to refocus on anything besides illness and so instead I began to work on business, and holidays, and then suddenly the local move we were making became less local.  Practically overnight we moved away from the North Bay and I launched a renewed business with crazy activity.  Next thing I know is I am fully immersed in the weddings and events industry in a full time capacity, more or less, with an assistant and some crazy busy schedules and a smidge overwhelmed.

It is almost a year after the move, and I am feeling even more shifts coming.  And with that comes opposition.

Anyway, I needed to journal and decided to do it here.  Why not?

I am concerned there may be some mold in here from the leak in the master toilet room.  I have been off balance, brain foggy, and having increased pain and memory issues.  In addition my eyesight is more blurry, and my hands are locking up, joints are really affected, and much of this I have not felt for quite some time.

I feel overwhelmed and frustrated, and wish I had some more help.  But I have some very special people who give so much... and it is hard when you want to give back.  Instead I am currently behind on business expenses due to being so sick over the last couple months... I just need that breakthrough already... seriously!

I am done... I have so much I could say, but I do not want to go into it.  My head is hurting, hands are cramping, and I feel like crying, so maybe this is not going to be so helpful right now after all.  Plus eyesight is acting up again.  Something is going on and has got to change!!!

so there...